Earlier today my husband's friend popped over to use our Internet access to take care of some things, and when he walked into the place, he saw that I was busy at work. I don't remember exactly what he said, but it was something to the effect of "Ah, you're working again" or "You're always busy at it" ... something like that. "Yep," I said. "I didn't get a lot done yesterday. Took some time off, so here I am."


Now, I am not writing this to pick on him or call him out specifically. He is one among many, many people who comment when they see me or call me that I am always working. What interests me is what it means, what is beneath these words.


I guess I am fascinated/always looking for/interested in metamessages because I am a born English major/writer (or is it the other way around?). I hunt out symbols in good writing and movies like a bloodhound. I trace themes and motifs automatically. So why not be on the alert for metamessages in everything?

I admit I should chill. But today I've been thinking about this regarding my work.

Of course, not everyone comments like this. My friend D is always supporting me to get as much done as I can, but I am sure she wants me to balance things out too (I am sure with a trip very soon to see Baby Mama!!!) But enough people do.

Sometimes I think that they are saying that my working all the time makes them feel less than productive and guilty about it. Are they jealous of my ability to make money whenever I am able to sit down and work? Are they masking a plea for me to get away from the computer and enjoy my weekend by relaxing/exercising/reading? Do they think I am wasting my life in a blaze of editing and I should go smell some roses? Who knows.

It's not possible to explain to someone who does not freelance that the clients do not care when you work, they just want the material done right and back by deadline. I mean, it's possible, but they can't live it and understand. In this economy, I am just grateful to be needed by my clients for all the projects they send to me. Seriously, I count my blessings almost every day and work hard to make them happy.

I guess I should just do what I need to do for me and try not to dwell on it. Right now I need to work each time I get an opportunity when my schedule allows. Bills to pay, money to save, future to plan. I'm very happy with how things are, so that should count for something, right? In the meantime, I'll see when the next comment comes. Maybe a look in the eye will give that metamessage away.